it's hard to feel pretty.
the media is so mean sometimes, and without even trying to do it. everyone is so thin lately. i mean, it's been an issue of young girls and self esteem for a long time, but more so as soon as britney and christina made their first appearances several years ago. even now as america gets more and more health conscious, we all are feeling less and less wonderful about how we look. it is virtually impossible to walk around and not see an ad for atkins or the south beach diet. on the plus side (no pun intended), more fashion magazines now have "plus size" models. on the down side, the "plus size" models are actually pretty normal sized, and they're featured only on a couple pages and those pages usually aren't spread throughout the magazine. they're all clumped together as though cosmo was saying, "see? we're realistic." but they're not. they're almost mocking.it used to be that there were a few actors and actresses who looked normal. jeanne garafola comes to mind. thora birch. but now they've lost their "excess" weight and are rail thin too. it's harder to think of an example for guys. jack black lost some weight once, but now i think he's back. and he's still funny and no one really noticed anyway.
i don't get it. i personally have never felt great about how i look. when i was home, i looked at some old photo albums from freshman year in college, and i was pretty skinny. i was surprised by how thin i was, but i remember back then thinking that i wasn't thin at all and being pretty much unhappy with how i looked.
i don't think i'm fat. i've put on some weight since i moved here and i'm actually kind of liking it. i feel grown up and like a woman, i guess. and whenever i see someone who isn't really thin and is normal and healthy looking, i can't help but think how beautiful they look. i wish there wasn't such a pressure on everyone to be so thin. the pressure to be healthy makes sense, but to be so skinny? i know it's a cliche topic, but it's just hard to feel pretty sometimes.
love, kate
posted by kate @ 10:58 PM
2 Comments:
Quit being such a lame whine-bag. How many times have I told you how beautiful you are? You know you're hot stuff.
When i lost 25 pounds this year I couldnt believe that life was still hard. I mean sometimes I would have a bad day at work or my boyfriend and I would get in a fight or something, and I would just think to myself "but I'm so much skinnier now..." I really subconsciously believed that thin girls didnt have problems. then i found out that i was an idiot and that even the skinniest and prettiest of girls still were unhappy with their bodies.
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