doomed: the diary of an hourly partner

i'm nothing important.

i don't do anything at all that is worth anything. i went to school for biological sciences, and i'm not using my degree at all. in high school, i was 3 years ahead of anyone my age in math and science. i won science fairs all across the united states. i won a full scholarship to graduate school as long as i advance in my research of my cure for cancer which i've almost got down.

but i'm not using any of it. i work at a restaurant wearing a hat and making coffee. i make $5.15 an hour and on the side i make porno films so that i can afford rent in my shitty apartment that doesn't even have a window. not one window! it's okay, though. rent is only around $1200/month. it's a steal, really. i don't do anything like volunteer, or follow my dreams, or explore life. i hate my job and my co-workers. and the funny thing is, i'm not brave at all. i lived with my parents until the absolute last second and even then i spent a long time researching a move up to chicago and spent a lot of time finding the job that was right for me. nothing really worked out. i wasn't lucky at all.

but hey, here i am. i'm miserable and lonely. i don't have any friends or a job that means anything to me. that's all that matters, right?

love, kate

posted by kate @ 8:38 PM