wait, you get a choice... i think.
things are pretty good, i suppose. work is coming along slowly- until i get the hang of it and start doing really well, i'm just going to keep getting the shaft on which sections i work. for example, it looked rainy and gross yesterday, so they put me and a couple other new people on the patio section because they knew it wouldn't be busy. of course it started to rain. i had two tables and was sent home after 2 hours. as of yet, i've been making okay tips. that menu is huge, though, and i keep forgetting to ask my customers things like what side dishes they want. i hate that i'm a waitress.
no work and all play makes for a kinda bored kate.
well, i've started working at bennigan's and i like it. it's fast-paced and pretty fun so far. so far meaning up until today and up until today i've work a total of maybe 6 hours. for training, i would be there only for the height of the lunch rush before i got sent home. not for any reason other than it costs a lot to train someone because they are basically eating money and slowing things down. sorta. so for my first three days i worked an average of 2 hours per shift. i finished training, technically, 2 days early, and was told to just wait until the next schedule came out before i start working the floor by myself.
that was friday. i just called and found out my next night i work is saturday, which should rock. and by rock i mean some fat bank. so i've basically had another week off. and which also means i'm pretty broke, and it's starting to freak me out.
i'm leaving enough in my bank to pay rent for next month, and until then and for some time afterwards, i'm gonna be in the hole pretty deeply. and that's only if i make the money they tell me i'll make at benningan's. if i don't make money, then i'll be broke for much longer. much... much much longer.
fish: updated
that would be a good title for a tv show.
anyway, shine and pentium. pentium i am proud to say is a really good-looking fish. i just noticed it the other day, because apparently i don't look at him as much as i just feed him, say "hey pentium. what's goin' on?" and then i'm on my merry way. however, he's really beautiful, he's red and flowy, and mad as hell. yep, he's oh-kay. (josh, sorry this is a repeat.)
shine. shine was given to me in an inch of dirty water in a dirty bowl. the plant was tipped over, his fins were practically out of the water, and there were three or four gross, bloated pieces of food floating around on top. not to mention he was all silvery and very ill-looking. so i cleaned his bowl, gave him fresh water, put some rocks at the bottom of his bowl, uprighted the plant, and put him in some sunlight. now that fish is blue and big and healthy. and i haven't missed feeding him once, thank you very much. he's not even right next to pentium! two different rooms entirely! *pat on the back*
my therapy.
so if you guys don't know it yet, i get very nervous. and very very anxious. so much so that i grind my teeth hardcore when i sleep. i don't know why i'm so nervous. it's gotten worse since i've gotten older, obviously, because i've gotten more responsiblities and i live in a big city and i don't have a "real job."
things that i'm stressing over now are two-fold: my new job at bennigan's that starts tomorrow, and also my new dog, tucker.
i'm nervous about tucker because he's so much responsibility. i mean, he's
small. and he's just learning everything and he's expensive! but he's a really good dog, so far. and he's sweet. and he totally gets me the babes.
i'm nervous about my new job just because it's a new job. and that's scary.
change just freaks me out. i mean, me and tucker are cool and fine, but damn this new job bidness. damn it all.
the end.
i've got a lot of free time. my new job doesn't start until saturday so i've got time to spare. today i was literally lying around in my underpants watching tv. it's what i do. it's kind of a pain to watch actual cable because we don't have a clicker, so i either put it on vh1 or tbs and just leave it. or i watch "the royal tenenbaums" on dvd and fall asleep to it. i've done that 3 times this week. but seriously, of those three things, it's all i watch.
but today i watched "jerry maguire." it's a good movie, i guess. i think it's worthy of the oscars it was nominated for. have you seen it lately? the older i get, the more i realize that "happy endings" aren't so happy. jerry stays with dorothy, but that's only because he is still afraid to be alone. and he need a business partner. and he's crazy about that little boy (who, even though i've seen this movie a bunch of times, still takes my breath away at his cuteness).
same goes for "high fidelity." the more i watch that movie, the more i really fucking hate it. john cusak's character makes no sense! i could go on, but my point is that the only reason he and his girlfriend got back together is because they were too lazy to stay broken up. watch it again and pay attention, they broke up for some really good fucking reasons.
maybe these happy endings weren't meant to be literal happy endings, but still. i can't tell what's more disappointing: the fact that they really aren't happy endings, or that when i was younger, i thought they were.
