i'm so tired.
i work at the gap. sorta. yesterday i had a potential 8 hour shift. i was there for three and a half hours before i was sent home. it was pretty slow this weekend. i mean, it was busier, but not as busy as i thought it would be. my mom said she read that the weekends in december are actually busier shopping days than the weekend after thanksgiving. i believe it.
the thing is, i don't mind it when they send me home. "kate, after this customer, you can leave." yes! i'll do it! i mind it when i get my $300 paycheck. for two weeks. but even then it's like, eh, so what. i didn't have to work. i watched me some tv, though. man did i!
the downside is my lack of doing anything worth anything has kept me from doing everything. i don't want to write my grad school essays. the one thing that will change my life for the better and i don't want to do it. it's a sick catch-22. all i do all day is walk tucker and sit around. i can't go grocery shopping. there isn't some mall that i can just go bum around in. i've become lazy. i remember when i would go months without watching tv and when i finally did, i'd think, "wow, so tv is like a form of entertainment." now i have TBS's lineup memorized.
i might as well blog.
since i've made such a change in my blog, perhaps i should actually do it. blog, i mean.
my first shift at el gapo was a 9-6. PM to AM, i mean. for those of you who don't know me, sleeping regularly is my middle name. i don't sleep all day, even when i know i will be up all night. and the next day, after the up all night, i won't sleep either. i sleep at night and i'm awake during the day. that is that.
the shift was accentuated by my cold. i was really sick and constantly having to leave the table where i spent three hours putting on anti-theft censors to blow my nose on cheap toilet paper that left my nose swollen and red and eventually peeling for two days after. needless to say, i honestly don't remember much of that night. i hardly remember the hour break where i went to CVS and bought frozen mac n' cheese, i don't remember how to get into the store through the back way, and i don't remember the names of most of the people i worked with.
but otherwise, it's been okay. after i got food poisoning on top of my cold, i recovered and can now fully dread the hellish holiday season full of crazy shoppers and messy fitting rooms to come. i'm ready to make mistake after mistake on the register and i'm ready to have no money for christmas!
the gap makes me realize how out of style i am.
it's time.
i was thinking of starting a whole new blog. i decided against it because of the confusion it may cause. i thought of deleting my current blog and starting anew, but i wasn't ready for that yet. so here i am, new and hopefully improved. i picked this templete because i thought it looked like a very old school type journal, one that a captain of a pirate ship might keep. well, if the captain was paid hourly and/or worked at the gap.
so, the template may change, the subject matter may be more directed towards my workings at the gap, which may or may not betray my confidentiality agreement that i signed, or i might be lazy and keep writing the same old stuff. i.e. tucker pissing me off, stuff that me and kris do, whether or not to stay in chicago, whatever.
anyway, i hope you keep reading.
signed,
your captain
cold and windy at 7:43am
well here i am. back in chicago, and fresh off the first night of gap, inc. orientation. i let tucker out this morning (after he, thankfully, finally slept through the whole night) in the cold and wind, a not so subtle taste of what is yet to come. i can't believe that it's going to get colder, windier, and snowier, and yet i will still have to take tucker out at 2am and then again at 4 and 5 simply because he decided to eat something he shouldn't have eaten. it's happened far too often, but at least it was warm outside.
i should spend the day either going to target, the bank, the grocery store, or begin writing my letters of intent for grad school, but i'm not motivated anymore. maybe it's because i haven't worked in so long. maybe it's because i'm really scared to apply for grad school because if i don't get in up here, it probably means moving away and being ever more clueless as to where my life is supposed to go. i don't know, but i don't want to do anything today other than watch season 5 of "friends" and maybe even take a shower. but that's it.
ok, here goes...
i'm going to start this blog out by saying, "i'm sorry." i feel weird and kind of stupid and also i don't know what's worse, working at a coffeehouse with a degree or, ahem ...working at the gap.
there. i said it. i work... *ahem,* excuse me... i work... dammit!... ok. phew. i work at the gap.
i'm not proud of it! i mean, sure i'll get a great discount and sure i'm happy about that because ever since i moved to chicago i've been gap crazy and sure it's only holiday work but come ON! rent! i need to make rent!
i start on wednesday. until then i'm in
collinsville. i'm cautious about what
the WDL said in a previous comment on my
blog about working at el gapo, but... i think i'll be okay. it's just for the holidays, right?
...tucker is licking the baseboards. it's understandable, we don't have baseboards this nice in our apartment in chi.
oh.
i realized something today. beta fish is not spelled as i thought it was. it's actually spelled betta. two T's. who knew.
